Thursday, 14 September 2017

Thank You

It was his birthday and I was there alongside him holding his coat as I met his closest friends, I was a spectator and a visitor. When it came time to leave his friends wished me well on my travels and said they looked forward to seeing me again when I returned.  After the meal we went back to his room which he was renting temporarily off a friend and he told me to tell anyone that I bumped into that I was his girlfriend, a word we had not discussed.  He sat down at his computer and began editing imagery for his band. I stood by him and he held my waist, kissing my waist, telling me that I was a distraction. I lied down on the bed and watched him. I felt such innate joy and content tiredness experiencing such a talented, nurturing, hurting and deeply loved human being creating. In the fluid calm moment I wanted to walk out and leave him there knowing that this was the peak emotion I could feel for him, I had no heart to offer him and our futures were not to be together. He would be better off without me, I could not ask him to fix my broken heart, he was meant for more.

At the bus station before my flight we kissed and our embrace turned into an accidental waltz.

A Couple of Years Ago

He doesn’t know his father and she can’t understand hers. We will go to the supermarket they say, find a new one just for that day.
Two weeks that heal.
She asked how she had stayed mostly sane and she said, ‘it’s just as it is and that’s just what happens sometimes.’
She is present - soft and not fazed, her skin is bruised but hers is milk with eyes so kind allowing vulnerability to slip down temporarily beside. Why so many questions why so many doubts just be present she thinks, just be kind.
Stay rooted, stay rooted, breathe.
'He has a woman for every city,' scratching at her pushed away thoughts. What was that, was that real?  
It was the romance of the summer evenings just telling her to believe.

Friday, 2 September 2016

John William Godward

Relaxing lady inspiration from John William Godward-

Eighty and Eighteen 1898

A Lily Pond

Head of a Girl

The Quiet Pet

Dolce far Niente 1904

When the Heart is Young

Tuesday, 18 August 2015

After a While

After a while you learn
The subtle difference between
Holding a hand and chaining a soul
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't mean security.

And you begin to learn
That kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises
And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes ahead
With the grace of a woman
Not the grief of a child

And you learn
To build all your roads on today
Because tomorrow's ground is
Too uncertain for plans
And futures have a way
Of falling in mid flight

After a while you learn
That even sunshine burns if you get too much
So you plant your own garden
And decorate your own soul
Instead of waiting
For someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn
That you really can endure
That you are really strong
And you really do have worth
And you learn and you learn
With every good bye you learn,

-Veronica A. Shoffstall

Friday, 7 August 2015

Wednesday, 8 July 2015

Love this shoot!

Free People July Catalog
Photographer : Guy Aroch
Model : Andreea Diaconu

Sunday, 5 July 2015

There is a friend and I am their biggest fan.

- He joins the dots and she gives him new ones. He calls her his balm.

..... 'I think my feelings are made out of playdough.'

Thursday, 2 July 2015

'The Last of the Teddy Girls' - Ken Russell

Ah yes!

Monday, 29 June 2015

-Thank you for reminding me of the small things. Thank you to all the people that smile because they can, not because they have to. We held hands once. You all make me believe again.


Saturday, 27 June 2015

Promise Yourself

To be so strong that nothing
can disturb your peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness, and prosperity
to every person you meet.

To make all your friends feel
that there is something in them
To look at the sunny side of everything
and make your optimism come true.
To think only the best, to work only for the best,
and to expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others
as you are about your own.
To forget the mistakes of the past
and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful countenance at all times
and give every living creature you meet a smile.
To give so much time to the improvement of yourself
that you have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear,
and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.
To think well of yourself and to proclaim this fact to the world,
not in loud words but great deeds.
To live in faith that the whole world is on your side
so long as you are true to the best that is in you.

― Christian D. Larson

Friday, 23 January 2015

Making bits and pieces....

Valentino SS 2015 Campaign by Michal Pudelka
Photographer: Michal PudelkaStylist: Karl TemplerHair: Tomo JidaiMakeup: Petros PetrohilosModels: Maartje Verhoef, Grace Simmons, Hedvig Palm, Vanessa Moody, & ClĂ©mentine Deraedt